I am scared now. Scared because I know of how much I want you, and scared of the fact that we might not be on the same page. I know it was my fault the first time around, it was all me & my selfishness that hurt you. And it would be fine with me if you don’t trust me, cause I know it probably did hurt you. I just want to know that we are on the same page and that I am not just another game, cause I don’t have time & the patience to be playing games. It’s either we are on the same page or we ain’t shit at all. Sometimes, all I really need is some reassurance & effort and time. Half of the times, I don’t even get none of that. I give you all of this extra attention cause I still regret hurting you. But you probably don’t notice, & it saddens and worries me that I probably never even crosses your mind throughout the day. I just wanna know..
Christine Ying Liang.
Young and there's so much more to learn.
(Source: michellephannn, via msgetst00pid)
Maybe this shit is just not for me. I don’t know why I feel like this. I don’t know. I don’t know. I don’t know.
It’s not like I ever wanted to be here anyways. Everything I do is wrong, you never asked what I wanted. It’s always about you, you, and you. You want to plan everything for me when it was never anything I wanted in the first place. I do something simply because its what I favor & you get mad cause I never told you in the first place. Well if I ever did tell you about it in the first place, would you have said yes? Because honestly does what I want even matter to you guys? For once I just want to do something that I want, but no when I do something wrong, you guys never let me have the chance to learn, instead you called me useless names and accuse me of things. You care about your reputation more than you care about my feelings and what I want. I am tired of living here & many times when I am unhappy, do you even care? When did you ever notice that I was actually unhappy? I am tired of you thinking materialistic things will make up for everything. I don’t even understand why I try. In your head, no matter what I do is wrong. I don’t get why I even stay here anymore.
